Category: Bladder cancer

Picture Prompt-38

by rugby843, posted in Bladder cancer

He thought they’d never find it, but they did.  He weighed it down with enough cement blocks to sink a battleship, but they still found him.  This was never his idea.  It was a request he had to fulfill, a promise he made to his old friend. Now it felt as if he had betrayed him.  

As he looked back at the city, he felt pangs of loneliness, so sad he couldn’t help from crying.  “I miss you so much, and I’m sorry this happened, I tried my best,”he thought to himself.  He sat down on the grass and held his dog for comfort.  The dog realized the pain his master was in and tried to lick his face to show him he cared.  He settled himself close in to his masters side.  “If only I could count on you when it’s my time.”  Jesse thought his dog understood because he looked up with reassurance.  

Jesse thought of his friends last sentence, “promise me, Jesse.” 

After such a long, painful illness, he asked  Jesse to commit the ultimate sacrifice, and let him go.   The illness was taking Paul’s mind little by little, and Jesse knew it would eventually take over completely, leaving him with only a decaying body.  Paul didn’t deserve that.  His request was simple, “give me the shot”.  Only sounding simple, just a few pills to put him asleep, unaware, and then give him the shot.  

Not an ordinary request, but he knew why.  They had grown up together, did everything together and when college ended, they realized they were not just friends anymore.  They became lovers, devoted to each other.  They had talked of this request as soon as they knew Paul was sick.  The disease was a terminal type of cancer with no cure.  Their relationship grew stronger in spite, or maybe because, of this.  They made promises, and now the promise Jesse had to make to Paul, to give him peace, had been carried out.

Paul never told his family about his love for Jesse.  Neither did Jesse tell his own parents.  Their love was forbidden, odd as that may seem today.  They traveled and spent holidays away from family.  No one would ever know of their secret relationship.  Now in this spot, alone with only his dog as a companion, Jesse just cried, he missed Paul so.  Paul’s plan was to seemingly disappear, his absence being accepted.  His parents and family too old now to care anymore what happened to their estranged son.  That was the plan.  Now Jesse thought, it was not a good one.  They should have told them the truth, no matter the outcome.  

The body was cremated after the police found it.  Paul was buried in Potters Field.  No one came forth to claim the body.  It was the ultimate sacrifice on Jesse’s part.  He hugged the dog tighter.

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Sleepless #3

by rugby843, posted in Bladder cancer

Another night of constant rambling

Starts at ten and then the ambling

Back and forth with boots and heels

Now I’m sure my fate is sealed.

And how many live up there?

Not that I really care.

It’s just the lack of sleep that matters

No quiet quilters or old tatters

Noisy, young and full of pep

Running up and down the steps

Outside my door and up above

One quiet night I would love.

Another vacuum at one and two

Could I just move in with you?

Pounding, then I guess they’re through

Off to work in cars more than two

A final insult are headlights

Into my darkness, oh so bright.

I might as well give up this rant

Stop this “neighbor”?   I just can’t!

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Sunday Photo Fiction-01-15-2017

by rugby843, posted in Bladder cancer


“I think it’s looking straight at me!” Jason squirmed as he thought he didn’t even want to touch it, much less take a drink.

“It’s just a goblet! Now take a drink!”

Jason went to the bar and tried to reach for the goblet, but those evil eyes…..it was like a warning.

Sneaking up behind Jason, Joe whispered, “drink from me and you’ll die, hahahahaha…”. Jason had a chill run down his spine at the thought, and Joe’s wicked laugh.

“Cut it out, Dave. If you’re so brave, you go first”, sounding like a six year old on the playground. They’re  here at Dave’s with his horrendous new Ebay purchase. And this glass gave Joe an eerie feeling.

“You pour, and I’ll take the first drink.” Joe poured the Burgundy in the goblet. No smoke, and the cup stayed in place. So far, so good.

Dave raised the goblet with a ceremonial nod to his friend, took the first sip. Joe watched carefully. Nothing. He was almost disappointed! Dave placed the cup on the bar. Joe was not going to be outdone.

Joe turned and was just about to take a sip when he turned back towards Dave. “Dave?”

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Jujojan-01-15-17-Mercy

by rugby843, posted in Bladder cancer


A lot of things came to mind with this word. I guess the most prominent was regarding the death penalty. I’m not here to debate either way. In fact I’ve been on both sides. When I was younger I thought there are some people who commit unthinkable acts and should receive no mercy. And then I thought if they did these things, they can’t be in their right mind, so should they be put to death for it? Luckily these questions have not affected me or my relatives in a personal way.  I can’t imagine the sorrow involved all the way around.
Now that I have experienced more of life, I think there is no mercy in murdering another human being, even in what some say is a humane way. There is no humane way, I don’t think it’s our decision to make.

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