I thought I could climb out of this sadness.  I tried to abdicate this relationship, once again.  It’s been so up and down, I feel the pangs of guilt, thinking this is my fault.  I am not the married one.  I am the lover, a figure of disgust and ridicule. I never thought I would be in this position, but I am dictated by my heart.

Four times we have been in this place, four times we have stopped, with broken hearts.  We wait, but seem compelled to try again.  If this was written as a play, it would be a tragedy.  Our love would perish, could not withstand another parting.  No matter how vague the solution, we can’t give up, as if  sipping nepenthe each time we think we can go on without the other. The pain of separation increases with each ending.

Our lives are sallow reminders of what we dream them, want them, to be, on the offhand chance, the fantasy, they might come true.  We can’t give in or give up.  Even though it is sweet torture, we stay. Then part again, try to live without each other, then reappear when one of us cannot stand the loneliness, the lovelessness, any longer.

https://mindlovemiserysmenagerie.wordpress.com/2017/07/17/wordle-164/

Pretty pink poisonous delight, always floating, an ocean’s plight.  Beauty extraordinaire, always dancing with such flair.

Attracting innocents to your flesh for your next meal, oh so fresh.  In your beauty you enmesh, but when surprised, they often thresh.

You are pink poison there’s no doubt, you lure them in and spit them out.

Three Line Tales, Week 77

 
‘Twas a devil mask I bought

Not giving it a second thought

I love all of Halloween

In this mask I want to be seen

I donned it on that fateful night

Noticed something not quite right

It stayed on all night through

Even on the next day, too.

In fact I found it a useless task 

To rid myself of this devil mask.

I sought the owner of the store

He said no refunds, but I implored

Help I said, I can’t get this off

He turned away, heard him scoff-

Should have read the print so fine

“Once donned, you are mine”

I pleaded almost with a yelp

Please, I need some help!

He pushed a note into my palm

Then stood there, remaining calm

“Meet Me Midnight In The Alley

Then I’ll Tell You Of Your Tally”

I met the devil on that night

His burning fire was the sight

I asked him what was the price

To rid me of this mask device

The fire roared and took its toll

The mask was removed,  also my soul.

Thursday photo prompt – Mask #writephoto

Losing its dried leaves

Overlooks the morning mist

On the cooling stream

Icy, but still flows along

Till all autumn leaves are done

http://chevrefeuillescarpediem.blogspot.co.nz/2017/07/carpe-diem-haiku-kai-autumn-retreat.html

Phones, cell phones, rotary phones, pay phones, all of them necessary but irritating at times.  I have no land line as they call it, only a cell phone.  The cell is necessary and portable so I don’t see the need for a stationary land line.  I have a Samsung and most of the time I have no problems with it.  It has Google and unfortunately Google wants everything else on my phone connected through it, such as games, game playstore, maps, search, video, music, etc.  I can’t imagine how desperate I would have to be to watch a movie on a small screened cell phone.

Lately I’ve been having problems.  Today especially, it would not recognize my touch, whether light or strong or held longer.  It caused a problem when I was talking to my sister two thousand miles away and she couldn’t hear me.  I pushed the speaker button but nothing happened.  People around me here text instead of call.  The small keyboard is not handy for arthritic fingers.  My grandson came over and his phone is a Samsung galaxy note?  It has a  larger keyboard, letters separated more, so less chance of hitting the wrong one, and other features.  My son, his uncle, gave it to him when my son bought a new phone.  

Now I am looking for a new one.  I think a refurbished, unlocked one may save money.  I thought if I purchased an iPhone instead of a Samsung I could coordinate between the iPad I have and the phone.  I was told today my iPad is too old for that convenience.  So here is my dilemma.  I need help on what type to get and is there any difference in them besides the amount of GB you want and the visual effects?  I would appreciate advice. At the moment I have the Straight talk no contract plan and like it.  I could go through them, but still can’t decide on what phone would be best.  And I have IOS 10 on the iPad, does that make a difference on a phone?  And all the different numbered versions, is there a big difference between 4 and 7 or 8, and what is it? Help! 😱

https://cathylynnbrooks.com/2017/07/20/alphabet-soup-challenge/

Jeff paddled faster, trying to reach the cave before the tide carried him out, wondering if he was too late, seeing no sign of life. Was he hiding in case they came looking? Surely they assumed he drowned. Jeff kept paddling and searched for a place to tether his small boat.  

He thought about the behavior of his young brother. Mike had always been headstrong and when this idea was brought up at dinner last week, he never imagined Mike would actually leave. However, the ads for adventure on the high seas took Mike’s mind back to pirate stories read as a boy. It wasn’t long before he had signed up to work for a few weeks as a hand on an “authentic” frigate of olden days. He left with the wish of experiencing a unique adventure.

The second night at sea the crew boarded a midsized vessel, acting as modern day pirates, scaring the ship’s occupants and stealing anything of value. Horrified, Mike pretended to go along, and when near to shore again, he jumped ship in the middle of the night.  

Jeff found him, safe. Homeward bound, Mike had no words, he felt deservedly foolish.

https://flashfictionforthepracticalpractitioner.wordpress.com/2017/07/12/flash-fiction-for-the-purposeful-practitioner-2017-week-28/

As you know, movies or music always comes to my addled brain first when seeing a Prompt, and I apologize right here and now if the refrain gets stuck in your brain…..🤦🏼‍♀️🙄😂

https://dailypost.wordpress.com/prompts/lollipop/

Calm children reading

Music starts from class next door

Wild dancing ensues

https://colleenchesebro.com/2017/07/18/colleens-weekly-poetry-challenge-haiku-tanka-haibun-calm-wild/r

The best vacation we took was a convention in San Francisco. The first time without our children, was sort of a second honeymoon. I had always wanted to see San Francisco, and it did not disappoint. My husband attended meetings during the day while his superior’s wife showed me the city.

I enjoyed my first hot pastrami sandwich on sourdough bread. We walked around, rode cable cars, and visited the artisan’s shops. It was exciting and informative.  

Chilly foggy town

Hilly streets with cable cars

Fine art and fine food

🏙🏙🏙🏙🏙🏙🏙🏙🏙🏙🏙🏙🏙🏙

Absence of children

Cocktails, romantic evenings

Just two for dinner

https://mindlovemiserysmenagerie.wordpress.com/2017/07/19/heeding-haiku-with-chevrefeuille-july-19th-2017-holiday-vacation/

Tree leaves are thinning

Last of the pumpkins remain

The harvest is done

http://chevrefeuillescarpediem.blogspot.co.nz/2017/07/carpe-diem-haiku-kai-autumn-retreat.html