I often watch from here. It’s harmless really, I don’t approach, I only watch. I realize it’s not healthy, my mind and body should be elsewhere, doing something, anything…anything to ease my pain, heal my heart. I don’t expect you to understand, I only want a few glimpses of what I could have had, would have had, if only I had given in. There’s nothing wrong with giving in sometimes—I know that now—now that it is too late and I can only observe from a distance what I am missing.