I imagined as a child, this would be my path. Of course I always thought I wanted to be married and have six little boys—what a concept, I think now. I did marry, had two boys and a girl, perfect! I thought I had what I wanted, the perfect life, a good family, a nice home, and a husband who was the love of my life—I was nineteen. And it was for a while. Now as I look back through illness and loss and life as it inevitably happens to all of us, to me or around me; I still maintain I am a very privileged person.